February 20,2011

Went to Memaw's birthday party in some crazy backwoods part of Alabama. LOL Had to take a one lane dirt road up the side of a mountain. Tons of fun... Right now I'm sleepy and I really want to sleep but I'm going to try and stay up a few more hours. Even though I have to be at work at 7 30 in the morning. Not much more to say. Nothing interesting has happened really. Just working and chilling with my peeps. So goodnight world <3

February 15th 2011

Typical work day. Up at 5 45 and went to work. Came home at 12 30. Crashed on the couch with Wilkins and woke up in a funk... And it's just great. (Que the heavy sarcasm!) My music didn't even help with this one! I think I'm just so tired of being stressed and spread thin that I just need a day to sleep and have some Kelsey time. TOMORROW!! lol yay! I slept for about 3 hours today and I still can barely keep my eyes open. So now I mini-vented and I'm going to sleep. I want to have a really good dream tonight... Just saying! Anyway.... goodnight <3

Valentine's Day 2011

Ugh I have had probably one of the worst days. Woke up at 6 am and turned on the music but even that couldn't make it better. Hard, long day at work and I'm not going into the rest. I'm just so mentally exhausted right now I feel very out of it. I don't want to think about anything and I don't want to do anything. I literally just want to wake up in the morning and be a completely different person, in a different place, in a different time. I do not understand why people can't be understanding. ( I think that's what you would call an oxymoron!) There are things in life we have to do and it doesn't seem people can just be okay with that. I want to do the right things here but it's difficult. It's just whatever. I know life is hard. But I'm going to be hard back. No matter what I have to do I will be happy. I will find that one thing that makes me happy. I will feel alive again. <3

Friday February 11th 2011

I do not fit into a box and do not try to stereotype me. I am a human being and I have a good head on my shoulders. Please let me be myself just a for a little while. People do not understand the reason I do the things I do. It is for myself and my own happiness. No the world does not revolve around me, but my life does. And the world doesn't revolve around you either. If I never break out of your box I'm going to die. Maybe not right away, because I'm strong, but eventually I will become a lifeless existence. And I am too young to be that way. I need to do what is right for me. Call me naive, call me disrespectful, call me disobedient, actually you can call me whatever you want. But don't do it behind my back, say it to my face. All that is cowardly and you are doing more harm to yourself. Karma. Get over yourselves and move on with your lives. If you couldn't tell, I have some super hot blood pulsing through my veins right now. I am tired of being a statistic and I want to break out of it. That is all. Goodnight.

Texting needs an unsend button!

Well this is the interesting thing that happened! Ok so I was browsing through some of my friend's pictures and was like hmm... I wonder if she is gay? Just a fleeting thought in my random mind. So I was going to text a buddy and ask what her opinion was about the maybe-gay person. Yeah... I text the maybe-gay person instead! OMG! And I couldn't even come up with a good recovery! My face got all red and I was super embarrassed!! This is what they are talking about when they say texting is bad! lol I really needed the unsend button right then! But the outcome wasn't that bad actually. She was really cool about it and I apologized a hundred times! Anyway My face is still red about 15 minutes later and I'm just thinking "Wow. I absolutely cannot believe I jsut did that." Okay nothing else interesting can happen tonight. At all. <3

February 9th 2010

Well I was awoken at 5 30 am. with a text. Blah went back to sleep only to be awoken at like 7 by Wilkins who wouldn't stop talking in her sleep! She was actually talking randomly very loudly and I kept hearing my name! lol Went back to sleep again! Then we woke up at 11. I think I got plenty of sleep! :) Mom called and wants me to go to Florida with Granny next weekend... Thing is that schedule is already posted and I don't know if I'm going to be able to get Thursday and Friday covered... eekkk... I think it will work out how it's supposed to. Anyway. Nothing else to report for the day. Maybe something interesting will happen and then I will post that too! So until then <3

February 8th 2011

My day started early today. Six thirty to be exactly. Actually six twenty! But after a quick shower I was raring to go. Yeah right. Work was mainly uneventful, just the way I like it. Though there was one thing that stuck out to me. As I was standing by the fireplace a man and his son walked by. The little boy was maybe 3 or 4 and, as children do, wasn't paying attention. He was distracted and almost ran into someone. Luckily Dad caught him, but what really stuck out to me was what he said to the boy. "Keep your eyes where you are going, not where you have been." Wow. This meant more to me than was intended and I got to thinking, as I usually do! What if more people kept their eyes focused on where they were going than where they had been? I guess I wanna go for the forgive, forget, and move on with your life thing here. If we focused just part of the energy we waste on holding a grudge on something constructive, the world would be a much better place. When you hold a grudge you let someone live in your head rent free. Take all that negativity and turn it into something positive. So what if you've been hurt? Everyone has at some point in life! It's what makes us strong and wise. If we never were hurt we would never learn anything. I, for one, need and want to learn how to be okay with myself as a person. So I have let go of my past and I have started a somewhat new life. All the regrets, the resentment and the anger I have held for so long are no longer going to define me as a person. I refuse to let someone control me in that way. I'm not meaning anyone in particular, I'm just saying. That is not worth my time and energy. Enough of that topic for now. On a funnier note, we went to TGI Fridays earlier and as the waitress was cleaning off the table she did something kind of funny to me. She was leaning over me, as she did many times on this visit, and her boobies were like just there right in my face!! and I'm not moving or anything, just sitting there. She looks down and with faux-innocence "Oh I'm sorry! My chest region is just in your face!" And just walks away. And by the way her name was Dena. :) It was just hit me funny so whatever! To-do list for tomorrow is nothing but cleaning and getting ready for Haley's baby shower Friday night! Yay! So I'm gonna go to bed now! Goodnight <3

February 7th 2011

Tonight I can be found in a twin sized bed. Have you ever just found yourself with absolutely nothing on your mind and at a loss for words? Not me and definitely not tonight. There is always something to be said or talked about. Today, and I don't know why so don't ask but, racism has been going through my head. I'm probably the furthest from it but it kills me how some many people are so judgmental. Why does it have to be that way? And I'm not just talking about towards different skin colors. Some people just seem to hate anyone who is different from them. Why? I mean seriously what the heck does it matter? Just because someone believes or looks different doesn't necessarily mean they are horrible people. I do, however, believe that everyone deserves a chance to be great. And some are never given that chance because of this issue in society. I see this more in smaller, southern towns but I believe it does exist everywhere. Racism has to be one of this stupidest things and it is all in the mind. If an African-American person had the cure to cancer, would you deny the treatment and die just because the administrator is black? Some people actually would. And that is just sad. Because you are so close-minded you are killing us all. Why can't everyone just get along? If we spent more time looking at ourselves we would realize that we aren't as perfect as we think we are. I don't believe there is only one right way. And if you do, you are wrong. But everyone is entitled to their own opinion and that is mine. Now I know this post won't make a difference in the world probably but it allowed me a bit of venting and it's what I needed. So next time you start to use a racial slur, put yourself in the other person's shoes and walk a mile first. Then see how you feel. Much love and goodnight <3

February 4th 2011

I write this eating a Swiss Roll, drinking a Mt.Dew and listening to Bottoms Up. :) Well it has been a pretty good week so far. Nothing to complain about. But also nothing extremely interesting to report. :( Today I taught Uncle Tim how to download real ringtones for free. He was so amazed!! I thought it was freakin hilarious! It's not really a big deal or hard to do you just have to know what you are doing. Which I do. It makes me feel intelligent and geeky lol But that's okay because if I'm a geek, I'm a pretty geek! bahahaha. My work schedule is super ugh for next week. I'm 7:30 am three days. I'm not a morning person at all and I hate getting up that early. It's just troublesome for me lol I'm not a happy person that early. It takes forcing down breakfast and a pot of coffee to make me cognitive enough to even get dressed! OH!! I posted my first cover on youtube yesterday. It's Perfect by P!nk and I gotta say it's not all that bad actually. So get my autograph now cause IMMA BE FAMOUS! lol no. But check it out on my page on youtube kelso10292 But I need to do another like tomorrow maybe. Any song suggestions? Anyway. I haven't done any exercise in two days thanks to Brandy! She broke my video! lol nah just kidding but I do gotta get moving again! My butt was just beginning to look good! So I'm going to watch a movie and finish my Swiss Rolls then go on to bed. Work at 9 am. Great :) So good night buddies! (I just pointed at you)

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