Insidious

Last night I went to Zack-Attack's house with the intentions of sitting around playing guitar and laying down some music. After about eh 30 minutes we got bored and he suggested movies! So we get in the truck and hit the road. We picked Insidious. Holy smokes that was a freaky movie!! We were sitting as far back from the screen as possible and squinting our eyes pretty much the whole time! It was hilarious how many times we jumped! And to make it ever crazier was that there were only 6 people, that includes us, in the entire theater. Then on the way home we head banged to some Metallica! Pretty good ending to a pretty good night! Oh and one more thing.... WE ARE NOT DATING! Zack and I are just absolute best friends. He knows everything,yes EVERYTHING, about me and it's ok. And vice versa. And for you guys who say you can't have an opposite gender best friend you are dead wrong! And we will prove that to you. There is nothing accept absolute best friend-ship between us! So there. See Ya!

30 Day Music Challenge-Day17

17)A Song I Hear Often On The Radio
E.T. By Katy Perry
And I love this song!

30 Day Music Challenge-Day16

16) A Song I Used To Love But Now Hate
Hot N' Cold by Katy Perry
It just got old

30 Day Music Challenge-Day15

15) A Song That Describes Me
Oh! There are so many I could put here but I wouldn't want to reveal everything lol
So I'm going with Numb by Linkin Park but only because it's something that's going on in my life right now.

30 Day Music Challenge-Day14

14) A Song No One Would Expect Me To Love
Bottoms Up by Trey Songz and Nicky Minaj
:)

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 13

13) A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure
Thriller by Michael Jackson
I listen to it all the time... Not just at Halloween lol

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 12

12) A Song From A Band I Hate
Anything Justin Beiber. Enough Said.

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 11

11) A Song From My Favorite Band
Waiting for the End by Linkin Park
LOVE me some Linkin Park

30 Day Music Challenge- Day 10

10) A Song I Can Fall Asleep To.
Born On The Cusp by American Analog Set
Really great sleepy song

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 9

9)A Song I Can Dance To.
I don't dance so I'm skipping this one lol

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 8

8)A Song That I Know All The Words To
Grenade by Bruno Mars
I know the words to tons of songs but this is the first that came to mind.

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 7

7) A Song That Reminds Me of a Certain Event
Long Distance by Bruno Mars
When I left Florida for Nashville and Nashville going back to Florida.

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 6

6) A Song That Reminds Me of Somewhere
The Messenger by Linkin Park
It reminds me of home and how to get there.

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 5

5) A Song That Reminds Me of Someone.
Need You Now by Lady Antebellum.
I can't explain.

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 4

4) A Song That Makes Me Sad.
Whiskey Lullaby by Brad Paisley and Alison Krauss

30 Day Music Challenge-Day3

3) A Song That Makes Me Happy.
Accidentally In Love By Counting Crows
I don't know what it is but I just like this song. It makes me smile :)

30 Day Music Challenge-Day 2

2) My least favorite song.
"Like A G6"
This has to be the stupidest song ever. It doesn't even deserve an explanation.

Moving On...

So here's the news. For those who didn't know a few months ago I moved to Nashville to stay with aunt for a while. I felt I needed to clear my head and get a fresh start. I was wrong. In all actuality I was running from things I was, and still am, terrified of dealing with. But being here I have grown as an individual and I know I can't be afraid any longer. I'm an oddball. I'm more than a little out there. I know that. And I have major issues facing my fears. But I know I have to be an adult and figure my life out. Now. So I'm moving back to Florida to face those problems. I have made many friends here that I don't want to leave but this was just a small chapter of my life. I'm going to miss everything about this place. And there are a few people that I won't even say goodbye to. Because I believe there is no good in goodbye and I can't bring myself to see this as an ending of relationships. Because I don't want this to be forever, I want to see you again one day. But I want to be a stronger person then than I am now. Until the day I see you again I will not be complete. I will miss you and I love you.

30 Day Music Challenge... Day 1

Day One: My Favorite Song.

Why is it that when you are asked about a favorite you can never decide? I have so many favorites! But I think right now I would go with Landslide sung by the Dixie Chicks. It is a simple song but it has a good meaning. And I just really like it :)

30 Day Music Challenge

Ok so I really didn't get as into the photo challenge. So I'm going to try this because I absolutely love music! Lets see how it turns out!


day 01 - your favorite song
day 02 - your least favorite song
day 03 - a song that makes you happy
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Something Else...

I don't easily trust people. The reason being is I'm afraid of being hurt again. I have let people in in the past and it has ended up just being more pain than it was worth. So to me,for now, if I don't let my walls down no one can touch me. I don't have to worry about my heart being broken or my feelings being hurt. I guess I should tell my story to the world for the first time. When I moved to Florida I made a friend. She was my best friend. My absolute best friend. We did everything together and knew everything about each other. I let her in and she became more of a sister than I have ever known. 5 years later she met a boy and their relationship was toxic. They fought all the time but the were "so in love." Well the day came when she and I parted ways. I was crushed and I felt so betrayed. This was someone who knew everything about me,good and bad, but still loved and accepted me for what I was. I didn't know what to do. This was one of the darkest times in my life. So I thought. I found comfort in her ex. I know the girl-world law but she and I weren't friends anymore and he and I were both suffering. One thing turned to another and soon I had found a new best friend. And so had he. I was crazy in love with this boy. It couldn't get any more perfect. We spent every waking moment together and when we had to work we never stopped texting. I couldn't get enough and I thought to myself "this is it. He is the one." I seriously have never felt before what I felt for that boy. Nor have I felt it since. I dropped all my walls and guards and he was under my skin. He was in my head. I was sincerely in love. I had my sign and I knew he was the one. Then one day it just stopped. I found out that he had been going behind my back and talking to the ex. I thought she had disappeared but I couldn't have been more wrong. They had started talking again and before I even knew anything was wrong, he was gone. I felt about 2 inches tall and like I had been punched in the gut. I don't even have the right words for how I felt. It can never be put into words. But that day I swore to myself that I would never ever let that happen again. I know it will sound so stupid but I went into depression and I lost a bunch of weight. I went to work and came home. That was it. Nothing else. I couldn't figure out how to live with out the two most important people in my life. So I put a lock on my heart. I couldn't see letting myself go like that again. My one shot at love had just walked out my front door. I know you all think this story has a happy ending but it doesn't. It has been almost 2 years since this happened and I can still smell his cologne and I think about him every time I walk into a Pac-Sun. Which I have learnt not to do. I still have dreams about things she and I did. And when I see a blue Mustang I have to look away. I haven't let go of all the anger and I'm scared that if I trust anyone the way I trusted them that it will end the same way. So I don't. I don't trust anyone and I don't let anyone in. I see no reason in putting myself into possible pain. I don't think I could go through all that again. I have the hardest time with relationships because I feel myself wanting to let go and it all comes flooding back and I immediately trow up a huge wall that is impossible to get over. And I'm not trying to pull a pity card here. I just want people who say I'm cold to know what has caused it. I may seem cold, hard, unemotional and sad but that is my defense. It is how I protect myself. In actuality, I come off that way because I'm on the fence about trusting you. I know I can and I know you are not going to hurt me it's just very hard for me to let go. So please don't give up on me. I'm different from every person on this planet. But I'm the best me there is. Or is ever going to be. I'm sorry I seem like a pain in the butt 97% of the time but again just a defense for me. I'm just a slow burner and it takes me a lot of time to be warm. But when I am, you will know it. I love you more than I can say.

A little tid-bit

I handle emotions differently than pretty much every person I know, but this doesn't mean I don't have them. I just am not as expressive with them. It's not that I don't cry, I just never let people see me cry. I'm apologizing for the things I have put people through. I didn't plan for the things that have happened. But even the most seemingly perfect humans make mistakes. And that is exactly all I am. Human. I was wrong. I made a mistake. I'm trying my hardest to fix it. But understand I ,and only I, can fix it. I am searching for my happiness. And it is elusive. The door has closed and the light has shut off. But I'm looking for the moonlight coming from my window. And right out that window is my paradise. And I'm going to do what's right for me to get out that window. No matter what it takes I am going to find that window and get out of it. I know I am a selfish and irresponsible person. You were right there. I know I don't always deal with everything right but it's only because I don't know how to deal with them. And a problem is that I do what feels right in the moment. I don't often think about the consequences. I don't often use my head. And I probably should. I know everything that you have done has been to protect me and get me to realize. Even though I haven't told you, I really do appreciate that. And I do care. I know I am on the verge of adult hood and there are some very real things coming my way. Some very hard things are coming my way. I just hope I can do what's right for myself. And to you: I'm sorry. I love you. I wish things could have turned out differently but they didn't. And this is how it should be. This is how it's supposed to be. ***4 Days Until Florida!!!***

30 Day Photo Challenge/Day 1

A picture of me and 15 facts...

1) My name is Kelsey Le' Justus Blackmon
2) My birthday is October 2nd 1992 and that makes me 18
3) I play the guitar
4) I am a HUGE music junkie
5) I hate to cry.
6) I'm a very small person at just 5 feet and 1 inch
7) I have worked at the same place for more than 2 years.
8) I'm a slower burner(it takes me time to get comfortable around new people)
9) Alabama fan
10) I graduated high school in 2009. 2 years early
11) I need to start college really bad
12) I'm kind of lazy!
13) I have trust issues and have a very hard time letting people in.
14) I'm very independent (not always a great thing)
15) I'm a pretty athletic person

30 Day Photo Challenge...

Day one: a picture of yourself & fifteen facts.
Day two: a picture of you & the person you have been close with for the longest.
Day three: a picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day four: a picture of your night.
Day five: a picture of your favorite memory
Day six: a picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Day seven: a picture of your most treasured item.
Day eight: a picture that makes you laugh.
Day nine: a picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day ten: a picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.
Day eleven: a picture of something you hate.
Day twelve: a picture of something you love.
Day thirteen: a picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day fourteen: a picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day fifteen: a picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day sixteen: a picture of someone who inspires you
Day seventeen: a picture of something that has made a big impact on your life.
Day eighteen: a picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day nineteen: a picture of you when you were little.
Day twenty: a picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day twenty-one: a picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day twenty-two: a picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day twenty-three: a picture of your favorite book.
Day twenty-four: a picture of something you wish you could change.
Day twenty-five: a picture of your day.
Day twenty-six: a picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day twenty-seven: a picture of yourself and a family member.
Day twenty-eight: a picture of something you're afraid of.
Day twenty-nine: a picture that can always make you smile.
Day thirty: a picture of someone you miss.

February 20,2011

Went to Memaw's birthday party in some crazy backwoods part of Alabama. LOL Had to take a one lane dirt road up the side of a mountain. Tons of fun... Right now I'm sleepy and I really want to sleep but I'm going to try and stay up a few more hours. Even though I have to be at work at 7 30 in the morning. Not much more to say. Nothing interesting has happened really. Just working and chilling with my peeps. So goodnight world <3

February 15th 2011

Typical work day. Up at 5 45 and went to work. Came home at 12 30. Crashed on the couch with Wilkins and woke up in a funk... And it's just great. (Que the heavy sarcasm!) My music didn't even help with this one! I think I'm just so tired of being stressed and spread thin that I just need a day to sleep and have some Kelsey time. TOMORROW!! lol yay! I slept for about 3 hours today and I still can barely keep my eyes open. So now I mini-vented and I'm going to sleep. I want to have a really good dream tonight... Just saying! Anyway.... goodnight <3

Valentine's Day 2011

Ugh I have had probably one of the worst days. Woke up at 6 am and turned on the music but even that couldn't make it better. Hard, long day at work and I'm not going into the rest. I'm just so mentally exhausted right now I feel very out of it. I don't want to think about anything and I don't want to do anything. I literally just want to wake up in the morning and be a completely different person, in a different place, in a different time. I do not understand why people can't be understanding. ( I think that's what you would call an oxymoron!) There are things in life we have to do and it doesn't seem people can just be okay with that. I want to do the right things here but it's difficult. It's just whatever. I know life is hard. But I'm going to be hard back. No matter what I have to do I will be happy. I will find that one thing that makes me happy. I will feel alive again. <3

Friday February 11th 2011

I do not fit into a box and do not try to stereotype me. I am a human being and I have a good head on my shoulders. Please let me be myself just a for a little while. People do not understand the reason I do the things I do. It is for myself and my own happiness. No the world does not revolve around me, but my life does. And the world doesn't revolve around you either. If I never break out of your box I'm going to die. Maybe not right away, because I'm strong, but eventually I will become a lifeless existence. And I am too young to be that way. I need to do what is right for me. Call me naive, call me disrespectful, call me disobedient, actually you can call me whatever you want. But don't do it behind my back, say it to my face. All that is cowardly and you are doing more harm to yourself. Karma. Get over yourselves and move on with your lives. If you couldn't tell, I have some super hot blood pulsing through my veins right now. I am tired of being a statistic and I want to break out of it. That is all. Goodnight.

Texting needs an unsend button!

Well this is the interesting thing that happened! Ok so I was browsing through some of my friend's pictures and was like hmm... I wonder if she is gay? Just a fleeting thought in my random mind. So I was going to text a buddy and ask what her opinion was about the maybe-gay person. Yeah... I text the maybe-gay person instead! OMG! And I couldn't even come up with a good recovery! My face got all red and I was super embarrassed!! This is what they are talking about when they say texting is bad! lol I really needed the unsend button right then! But the outcome wasn't that bad actually. She was really cool about it and I apologized a hundred times! Anyway My face is still red about 15 minutes later and I'm just thinking "Wow. I absolutely cannot believe I jsut did that." Okay nothing else interesting can happen tonight. At all. <3

February 9th 2010

Well I was awoken at 5 30 am. with a text. Blah went back to sleep only to be awoken at like 7 by Wilkins who wouldn't stop talking in her sleep! She was actually talking randomly very loudly and I kept hearing my name! lol Went back to sleep again! Then we woke up at 11. I think I got plenty of sleep! :) Mom called and wants me to go to Florida with Granny next weekend... Thing is that schedule is already posted and I don't know if I'm going to be able to get Thursday and Friday covered... eekkk... I think it will work out how it's supposed to. Anyway. Nothing else to report for the day. Maybe something interesting will happen and then I will post that too! So until then <3

February 8th 2011

My day started early today. Six thirty to be exactly. Actually six twenty! But after a quick shower I was raring to go. Yeah right. Work was mainly uneventful, just the way I like it. Though there was one thing that stuck out to me. As I was standing by the fireplace a man and his son walked by. The little boy was maybe 3 or 4 and, as children do, wasn't paying attention. He was distracted and almost ran into someone. Luckily Dad caught him, but what really stuck out to me was what he said to the boy. "Keep your eyes where you are going, not where you have been." Wow. This meant more to me than was intended and I got to thinking, as I usually do! What if more people kept their eyes focused on where they were going than where they had been? I guess I wanna go for the forgive, forget, and move on with your life thing here. If we focused just part of the energy we waste on holding a grudge on something constructive, the world would be a much better place. When you hold a grudge you let someone live in your head rent free. Take all that negativity and turn it into something positive. So what if you've been hurt? Everyone has at some point in life! It's what makes us strong and wise. If we never were hurt we would never learn anything. I, for one, need and want to learn how to be okay with myself as a person. So I have let go of my past and I have started a somewhat new life. All the regrets, the resentment and the anger I have held for so long are no longer going to define me as a person. I refuse to let someone control me in that way. I'm not meaning anyone in particular, I'm just saying. That is not worth my time and energy. Enough of that topic for now. On a funnier note, we went to TGI Fridays earlier and as the waitress was cleaning off the table she did something kind of funny to me. She was leaning over me, as she did many times on this visit, and her boobies were like just there right in my face!! and I'm not moving or anything, just sitting there. She looks down and with faux-innocence "Oh I'm sorry! My chest region is just in your face!" And just walks away. And by the way her name was Dena. :) It was just hit me funny so whatever! To-do list for tomorrow is nothing but cleaning and getting ready for Haley's baby shower Friday night! Yay! So I'm gonna go to bed now! Goodnight <3

February 7th 2011

Tonight I can be found in a twin sized bed. Have you ever just found yourself with absolutely nothing on your mind and at a loss for words? Not me and definitely not tonight. There is always something to be said or talked about. Today, and I don't know why so don't ask but, racism has been going through my head. I'm probably the furthest from it but it kills me how some many people are so judgmental. Why does it have to be that way? And I'm not just talking about towards different skin colors. Some people just seem to hate anyone who is different from them. Why? I mean seriously what the heck does it matter? Just because someone believes or looks different doesn't necessarily mean they are horrible people. I do, however, believe that everyone deserves a chance to be great. And some are never given that chance because of this issue in society. I see this more in smaller, southern towns but I believe it does exist everywhere. Racism has to be one of this stupidest things and it is all in the mind. If an African-American person had the cure to cancer, would you deny the treatment and die just because the administrator is black? Some people actually would. And that is just sad. Because you are so close-minded you are killing us all. Why can't everyone just get along? If we spent more time looking at ourselves we would realize that we aren't as perfect as we think we are. I don't believe there is only one right way. And if you do, you are wrong. But everyone is entitled to their own opinion and that is mine. Now I know this post won't make a difference in the world probably but it allowed me a bit of venting and it's what I needed. So next time you start to use a racial slur, put yourself in the other person's shoes and walk a mile first. Then see how you feel. Much love and goodnight <3

February 4th 2011

I write this eating a Swiss Roll, drinking a Mt.Dew and listening to Bottoms Up. :) Well it has been a pretty good week so far. Nothing to complain about. But also nothing extremely interesting to report. :( Today I taught Uncle Tim how to download real ringtones for free. He was so amazed!! I thought it was freakin hilarious! It's not really a big deal or hard to do you just have to know what you are doing. Which I do. It makes me feel intelligent and geeky lol But that's okay because if I'm a geek, I'm a pretty geek! bahahaha. My work schedule is super ugh for next week. I'm 7:30 am three days. I'm not a morning person at all and I hate getting up that early. It's just troublesome for me lol I'm not a happy person that early. It takes forcing down breakfast and a pot of coffee to make me cognitive enough to even get dressed! OH!! I posted my first cover on youtube yesterday. It's Perfect by P!nk and I gotta say it's not all that bad actually. So get my autograph now cause IMMA BE FAMOUS! lol no. But check it out on my page on youtube kelso10292 But I need to do another like tomorrow maybe. Any song suggestions? Anyway. I haven't done any exercise in two days thanks to Brandy! She broke my video! lol nah just kidding but I do gotta get moving again! My butt was just beginning to look good! So I'm going to watch a movie and finish my Swiss Rolls then go on to bed. Work at 9 am. Great :) So good night buddies! (I just pointed at you)

*pCe*

Sunday

It's laundry day.... Yay.... It's a super easy day today and I like it! My first day off in a few days so I'm definitely not doing too much. Even though I know I need to be moving ! lol Never going to get back in shape if all I'm doing is laying around. Oh yeah because that's not all I do! hehehe I'm so totally rambling now. So anyways I gotta go hang up clothes. Later <3

Jillian Michaels

UGH! So Monday I started doing Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. OMG! I didn't know I would be in so much pain after! I did the whole 20 minutes and I barely made it down the stairs after. My legs were shaking, threatening to give out! I was laughing at myself so hard! And this was in like the middle of the night btw! Tuesday I wake up at noon and can barely move at all, but I do it again. This time I did level one and about 30 minutes later I did level 2. This time was no where near as bad and I made it all the way through. :) the hot bath after made it a lot better I think. And I just finished the first level of my workout for tonight. I have only been doing it for three days but I can already tell a difference. I barely have any back rolls and my butt is very firm! :) :) I'm still a bit sore but I know if I stink it out I will be okay. So my goal isn't to lose a ton of weigh I just want to shape up and look good. And I'm going to get there! Right now my measurements are: Hips-42 inches :o! Waist- 25 inches :) and Boobs are at 32 inches :) So yeah its not that bad. I so need to practice guitar! lol I know random. Other than the new work out I haven't done much of anything except work, eat, and sleep! So my arms are tired of typing and I need to start my next segment so byee

2nd Post of the Day

Well the only thing I accomplished was cleaning the kitchen. Kinda don't have an appetite and I don't know why. Oh well I'm eating too much anyway! :)It's snowing outside. Been doing way too much thinking today. Just letting my mind wonder and linger on different things. Nothing in particular. “Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” “Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.” Just two of my most favorite quotes :)

Nothingness

Today has been just one of those super-not-doing-anything days. I start back to work Saturday at A.M. so I am enjoying my last two days of being super lazy. I feel like I have gained like 20 pounds lol I must get back on my routine!! AHH! I need to get up and clean the kitchen but I so don't want to. And I think I probably shouldn't say this here but... If anyone has ever seen MADE you should know who Lacey Stone is. I randomly added her on FB today not really thinking anything about it. Well she accepted it and I messaged her just like saying Hey and she actually responded. I know I sound like a total huge dork right about now but I just thought it was super funny!! Talking to a celeb was pretty cool for the whole minute it lasted!! Anyway... it just kinda made me laugh for a little bit. Then I deleted my FB account...... again...... :) In other news Glee returns February 2nd after the Super Bowl!!!!! WOOHOO!!! Thinking about having a Glee Party with Jordan, Lizzie, and Jasmine! :) Well I'm hungry so I'm going to get up off my butt and clean the kitchen and eat a bit of something. HMMM What to eat?

Moving....

Well I actually have already moved. To my Aunt Mon Mon's right outside Nashville, Tennessee. :) Loving it! I needed a fresh start and some new faces. And thats exactly what I have here. Don't get me wrong, I miss my family in Florida. It's just sometimes people need to change to be better people. I transferred my job and I am going to be getting into school soon. It's alot colder here... by like 30 and 40 degrees! I am finding myself and learning to be a better person. I need to know that I can make it by myself in order to grow as an individual.